Uh oh

Suddenly had a yearning to listen to some XTC. To make things worse, I found "Sargasso Bar" on YouTube, a song that didn't make it onto Go 2, my least favorite album.

It sounded pretty good.

Livin' on the edge

Breakfast was four tablespoons of chia seeds (Bob's Red Mill) and four tablespoons of hemp  seeds (shelled, Bob's Red Mill also) with a little water added to make a sort of cereal. Didn't taste bad, sort of like plain oatmeal. Also had five boiled eggs because I am a disgusting pig. Seasoned the eggs with a sauce made from one packet each of mayo, mustard, and hot sauce (KFC). Had my usual pint of coffee with half and half as well.

No matter how well you try to chew them up, there will be little chia seed husks in your poop.

Feeling like I'm just on the edge of buzzed. I really hope it's low blood sugar and not the hemp.

I also really hope that I don't get busted at a border patrol stop for carrying seeds I bought at Whole Foods.

Second dinner

Self abuse isn't just a euphemism for masturbation. It's also when you polish off two orders of chicken wings, then go to Taco Bell and get a #1 (Burrito Supreme, Taco Supreme, large Baja Blast) with an extra bean burrito and a side of rice and beans. Fuck you, pancreas!

I had been feeling pretty good until then, even went so far as to buy a new pair of jeans, which I literally haven't worn in years. A year ago, I was buying chinos with a 44-46 inch waist. Today, they're a 40. Here's hoping eating healthy tomorrow will bring some of that feeling back.

Cheat day

Ugh. Didn't post yesterday because I was ashamed. I gorged myself all day, starting at midnight. I had an RC cola with a cinnamon bun and a pack of Cheetos from a vending machine. Then a bottle of chocolate milk and a slab of pepper jack cheese. After sleeping a little, I went to Pizza Hut for their lunch buffet and had six slices of pizza with two giant scoops of pasta in meat and cheese sauce, with two glasses of Pepsi to wash it down. Oh, and a plate of salad. Then I got some wings to go, for more self-abuse. Had those with a few olives.

I ordered some Mexican takeout for my little sister, and a Burger King combo for myself. Original chicken sandwich, fries, and a raspberry ginger ale. With an extra Rodeo cheeseburger because I hate myself.

Because my sister is a tiny waif, I wound up eating her two beef tacos, most of a bag of tortilla chips, and some salsa, which along with the olives-oh, and a stevia cream soda, was the only healthy thing I ate today.

And then because I hate myself and my pancreas, I had a Mountain Dew Kickstart around 10PM.

After writing all that out, I'm really not wanting to admit to all that again. Next Monday will probably be a cheat day as well, but I don't want it to be nearly as extreme.

And the war crime I committed in the men's room of Lowe's grocery is also a pretty strong motivator to eat better.

Midday snack

Well, midday if you keep weird hours.

A 20oz cup of dark roast coffee with a heavy splash of half and half
1oz Jack Link's Original Beef Stick. Not the best thing to put in your body, but it's only 2 carbs, and delightfully greasy.

Feeling well-rested and focused, although that may just be because I'm not driving through a Wyoming snowstorm with an iced over windshield like
I was last night.

Brain fog

Felt a little unfocused and out of it for a few hours after breakfast yesterday. I've heard it's to be expected when you start low carbing it, but didn't expect it so soon. It's probably not noteworthy, but I want to have a record in case it comes back.